DESERTER LYRICS
HEEL THEME
I said always
I could follow you around
But take a look at me now
I’ve gone missing
Tangled hair you called my bluff
I don’t love you enough
I thought it was good
To be perpetually misunderstood
You’re a card shark
Take me for all that I have
I once aspired to
Resurrect my sense of touch
But I don’t love you that much
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HIGH NUMBERS
I was there
No strings
Empty calories
Caffeine
No night stands
No sleep
I was meaningless and free
Theres no consequence
Leave no fingerprints
But I don’t think about you
Any more than I have to
But I’m worried about everything all of the time
I got no room for lightness to stay on my mind
Nothing hurts
And then
What happened to my friends
Keep it light and fake
Until it drifts away
Dying to try it
But was never invited
I’ve got urges I can’t control
Ten year grudges I can’t let go
Sticky fingers inside my soul
I FEEL WORSE
It’s late and your ears ring
Red wine and white jeans
But when it won’t come out
I feel better
I try to talk but there’s no sound
Wandering eyes and a big mouth
But when the joke falls flat
I feel better
Walk out the door
Take a deep breath
Tell me something I haven’t heard yet
When you come out…
I can’t imagine how the walls talk
Take out the trash and get fucked up
You’re settling down
And it can’t get worse
Now and then I call your bluff
Explanations you cooked up
Reasons why you’re so misunderstood
Then you lose your self-control again
Wake up with the porcelain
Don’t look so surprised
I never said that I was good
But I feel better
NO SHOWS
Eighty-nine I smashed your window
Searching through your dresser drawers
Girls like you were always no shows
But I refuse to be ignored
People like me
People like you
No privacy
I’m in your room
I found a cardboard box of photographs
There’s black and white and shades of gray
Could make you pay for all the fun I never had
It ends in nothing either way
Now that I have you alone
Now that I have you exposed
I am complete
And I am cruel
BRAIN FOG
I pull the chain and my brain gets foggy, right
Checking my pulse in a hotel lobby
I don’t wanna stay here for a long time
The cocktail shakers in the moonlight
The escalator takes a lifetime
I won’t tag my name
Step off the plane
You’re in Indiana, right
Walk through the parking lot to Benihana’s
I have not been here in such a long time
I missed the exit and the white wine
Float in the pool
Do not disturb signs
I won’t tag my name
ONE OF THREE
What else were you gonna do
But complain for a living
Till their patience starts thinning
For you
I could have been one of three
Changing strings for the winter
Raising hell on my liver
Like you
But I’ve got every right to change my mind
And staying in one place
It feels alright
No, I’m not grasping at a life that got away
If I’m not over it
I’m closer every day
What else did I think I was
Buying beer with dimes & quarters
Smuggling shirts cross the border
Like you
Never in the present tense
Always somewhere I’m heading
Missing birthdays and weddings
Like you
But I’ve got every right to change my mind
And trying to be good
It feels alright
No, I’m not grasping at a life that got away
If I’m not over it
I’m closer every day
You’ll always be the one I’m always waiting for
From coast to coast, I’m sleeping on your wooden floor
Well I got it
I finally get it
I’ve got every right to change my mind
And giving it all up
It feels just fine
No I’m not grasping at my life that got away
I’m not yet over it
No, I’m not over it
But I’m closer every day